almost hired.

i called some company because i just had ics help me fill out an i-9 form for the company yesterday. i asked the lady right away if the job would involve any physical activity.. she said, "well.. they'd just have to push a cart.." i answered back, "i could do that. i just was wondering about picking things up.. because i'm not sure i'd be able to carry heavy things.." because right now, it feels like my arms are spaghetti noodles- even when i lift my weight and do push-ups EVERY day- the arthritis in my hands hurt like a bitch. the lady said, "OH! yeah.. we'll just have you fill out some forms to complete employment if you can come into our offices later.." then i said, "well i can have my pca bring me in there tomorrow." and then she replied, "oh.. i see. yeah, you can just come in whenever and fill out these forms!" so i'm not sure what she "see"s but i'm more than likely pictured as some disabled idiot WHO CAN'T DRIVE. THANKS A LOT "SUPPORT" SYSTEM FOR ALL THE "SUPPORT" IN HELPING ME TO GET MY LIFE BACK AND HELPING SO I CAN DRIVE AGAIN! you guys are the best.. *rolls eyes*. i wasn't even the cause of my fuckin car accident YET I bare the consequences AGAIN. whatever.. hopefully fredrick can bring me soon or i'll just have to take lyft.
since a daily reader can now magically read- i figure i'll mention my disappointment i just realized- my mom can stop smoking because my sister bitches at her if she wants to see her grandchildren grow up but my mom can't even stop smoking for ME after i have at least THREE surgeries on my throat/palate and am NOT supposed to be around smoke.. nice.. we can see who she cares more about. OH LOOK! JUST another reason to stop talking to her selfish ass.. besides not wanting to deal with negativity anymore (whenever she calls me- it's JUST to complain.. if that isn't negative right there- i don't really know what is). i'm happy for someone to give me the opportunity to work again. it's like the people in my life (my SUPPOSED "support" system) are refusing to see the progress i make and the things i do for myself JUST to keep me in the same position in life.. i'm not really sure why. it's not like i serve a threat to anything involved with them. probably their egos- they don't like seeing people possibly doing better in life than them.